Princess's Stories

look at this picture maybe doesn't mean anything to some people....but for she is someone very special....this is her 1st pic that i caught my eyes when i was browsing some tattoo artists' profiles looking for a design for my new tattoo...i never seen a girl...i mean a tattoo artist girl...most of them are guys....i mean she's a malaysian girl...in my head was how did she get involve in this career??? this is very rare u know...

what makes me disappointed that time was..damn she's not here...if she is i would like her to ink my body...lol....after that i discover that she won lots of competition...i was like wow to her...she deserve it...happy for her...and then she became a model...another achievement...now she has her own business...isn't she's great?! looking at her beautiful pictures with her inspiration words really boost me up....she really can motivate people...through her words i can know that she works very hard to be in her position right now...maybe some people do have negative opinions bout her but not for me....they just jealous because she earn everything herself for what she has now...i never know that she's such a strong girl...determine...and lots of incredible things that others don't know bout her....

my point here is just to share one of my role model....when i say i wanna become like her i mean i wanna be a success girl like her...i wish i am strong like her...get up when u fail...continue the journey...make your own path of life...there is always a price for the hard work we do....

there are so much amazing things about her...should learn from her every success....i wish she get what she wants.....

i thought i have lots of things wanna say just now...guess i was so admire her til all the words the don't seems suitable...heheheheheh....

there's a lot of things happen since im gone...well...everybody knows that life is uneasy...some people when they wake up in the morning a new day has started...new adventure in their life...might be a challenge for certain people...not everybody has the same life story...

in our life,people come n go even though u never ask for it...things happen for a reason..mostly the answer is God had chosen what is the best for us whether u like it or not....u may make ur own path of life but He is the who decide...hard to say actually....

the saddest news I've got is when 1 of my friend had passed away...Esther Jais...until now i still cant get over it...she is so young...she is 1 year younger than me...she has bright future ahead her if she still alive...i know when people gone means God loves her more...but still...she is too young to go...i rather trade my life for her so that she can archive what she had dream...i didnt get to go to her funeral cause im not feeling well that day...sometimes i feel so angry whenever i see someone post condolence message on her facebook wall...

i couldnt say much here...makes me so sad..what im trying to say here appreciate every moment u have with ur love one...no matter who they are do treasure them cause u dont know what will happen til it is too late...

Father's Day was 2 days ago n til now i haven't wish him yet...i feel sad bout that but i really don't know what makes me from doing it..It is not that i don't love him or hate him...i do love my dad so much...who doesn't??!! I really wanna wish my dad,wanna tell him that he is the greatest dad i ever have,wanna hug him,wanna feel the love...don't get me wrong...i didn't mean that my dad doesn't love me...he do love me so much since I'm the eldest n yes he do love all his children...he misses his children every second..believe me or not..when he's still working, everytime he reached his office he'll definitely will call us if we're at home just to hear our voice..imagine that....

Until now this feeling really bothers me...a lot!
 
Let me tell u something that me n my dad have in common...
1. Egoist...this is a gift my dad gave it to me since i was born....when he thinks he is right even though he isn't,nobody will change his mind/words...same goes to me but I'm slightly different...for example,when my dad thinks that I'm wrong which I think I'm not n i should apologize,don't even bother to hear "I'm sorry" from me even though they are my parents..but usually he will force me to say it...so,I did say "I'm sorry" but i hold my anger...i keep it myself which i know it'll turn into something bad someday...that is what i do...what else i can do?! He's the boss... This is 1 thing that i realize that keeps me apart from my dad day by day....
2. Hard-headed... When I want something which I know I can get it,I really gonna get it no matter what...same goes to him....but mostly I don't get them by asking him...I have to work my ass off to get what I want even though i didn't get the approval from him or it might takes a long period for me to archive....I'm so envy with my siblings when they get what they want...they only have to ask..that's it...easy peasy..back to my time,when I ask I usually get a negative answer...he throw me with lots of excuses...common excuse-financial problem...but what I see now we do facing some financial problems but still they get what they want especially my little brother...don't bullshit me that is because he is the only boy or he is the youngest...he told me that he love me the most but why I always get the less n more hardship??!! In my understanding that every human has a brain for them to think...no matter how old n what gender are u,u still have the ability to think...! So,back to the main point,when I want that n I'm truly believe on it,I'm gonna get it in any cost...

As i grow older, I'm like running away from my dad...but everytime i see my dad i cry in my heart which I really miss him so much...

Now what I do is that I'm gonna prove to him that i can get the life that I want by myself...without his guidance...without his support from my back...all by myself...I don't care if I'm being thrown to hell someday...I want him to know that I'm his daughter...who I am today is his creation....good or bad result is still his artwork since he is the creator + the leader in the family n nobody can object his every single word...

I still keep every moments,words,anger,hurt,etc. that he did which haunted me everytime...but I keep it in a special place...don't worry...

gtg....he's awake now.....nite n morning...

it's 2:19am when i started to write this post.....

i cant sleep....my head is crowded now...cant think straight....lots of things have to be done....yet i still cant decide which 1 should i start 1st....im so blank right now...eh wait! did i say my head is crowded now?? oh yeah i did...and my head feels like empty....

OMG!!! i think im going crazy!! or maybe because i have a fight with him just now....oh well...like i care bout it anymore...im done with it....nothing much to say....im sure if i tell u u'll be bored too cuz im so tired n bored with it already....so just let it be....and go with the flow....hehehehehhehe.....

the reason why im writing this post is just to kill my time,make me tired so that i can go to sleep and if i still cabt sleep i hope there is an idea for me to start doing my tonnes of assignments which due on the end of this month....omg~.....

oh!! i have this thing that bugging me when the trust issue is mention.....example: when this guy says that he completely doesnt trust u anymore,that is mean whatever u say is worthless...right?! and why bother asking bout this and that if the trust doesnt exist anymore?? weird...i never knew that this kind of...err....what do u call it?? way of thinking, attitude, personality, or what?? ok...doesnt matter whatever do u call it yet i still think it's weird...dont u?? i mean when u have trust issue with somebody, whatever the person says wont be ur concern anymore....i mean either the person telling the truth or not im sure u wouldnt care anymore....thats between the person and God right...(*people always says that*)?! then why would u wanna bother asking and pushing if it's true or not??!! sigh....this person is really a freak...if i were him, i dont even care.....if the person telling the truth,well done for him/her...if not, thats him/her lost....and advice,dont mention or ask if it's true or not...yes the person did hurt u...yet if he/she trying to change yet u underestimate the person,u're leading him/her to the negative effect...i mean the person might be hurt and u wouldnt know what will he/she do just because of that such as "oh really??" or "why should i trust u???" (*something like that...*)......why cant u just say "ok."....?? is that hard to say that?? and also plz dont drag the past again...dont u think it's annoying?? the person is trying to change....but u never let that happen....havent u heard bout people change?? im sure u change too...whatever it is,i really cant make a conclusion with this situation....really cant help the person......im so sad for ***....

anyway.....~~why m i talking bout it?? i should be thinking bout my work.....well....just wanna ask for opinions if u read this.....

anyway chow people....it's late and i need to start something with my work....gtg....

p/s: do whatever u think is right!
xoxo

hey!!! im back!!! back in the mood for blogging....hehehehehhe....well....nothing much to say actually...im just wondering valentine's day n my birthday is around the corner....im not bragging bout it actually....im just wondering how is my day on that day.....(*wondering...*)....

anyway,while i was thinking...suddenly my past popped out in my head....yeah...i do have some rough times with my relationship,studies n family problems....too much to say n i think im gonna keep it myself....hey...it's 2010 aight?! so it's a new beginning for me from the upside down of my life before.....it's almost 2 months since new year....im quite happy with my life....i did get mad,grumpy mood,sad n what so ever yet they didnt effect me that much...i mean i didnt get so depressed or frustrated.....i really hope it'll continue til my last breath....hehehehhe

within 1 month +....i get this funny feeling....i mean funny not funny that makes u laugh....i mean like weird feeling...it's not a bad thing actually....u know why?....cuz i've been missing my dear everyday even i meet him like everyday....i know he's tired fetching me n send me home or bring me to anywhere i want...still i want to meet him....seeing his smile makes me miss him even more...omg!!! i know im soooooo jiwang now yet that's the funny feeling i have now....

i've been so bad with him....i know that he will do anything for me whenever he could....u know what i do?? i rather late for my class waiting for him to fetch me just because i want to see him...hehehehhe...i know im bad....i rather wait for him til 5.30pm even though my class finish at 4.45pm or earlier just wanna spend some time with him before i get home....hehehehhehe

n 1 more thing...im addicted with his hugs....i really love it when he hug me.....even now i miss his hugs.....i cant recall how is the feeling when we hug...i need to hug him to feel it...then when i get home i want to recall it yet i cant n makes me want to hug him again to remind me....

i know it's crazy but yea....that's how i feel.....

that's it for today.....we'll see how is my day on valentine's day n on my birthday...i really hope it'll be the precious moment i have......finger cross....heheheheheh

muax!!!

halu bebeh!! mish me?? hehehe..i knw it's been a while...there's a lot of things happen n lots of drama...it's a very long story 2 tell...n things happen continuously...hving a hard tym..

anyway...yesterday i went 2 my dear's uncle's wedding...the wedding reception was very simple yet it's so sweet..i wish mine will b tht sweet 2...the venue is at pacific ballroom...like other wedding hotel..of coz we go 4 the food...hehehhe...my gosh!!! u cant believe it...they hv more than 5 type of dishes...i think my stomach was gonna explode that nite...
the sweetest event was when the groom's frens was singing for him...n the continuous 'yam seng'...gosh...can u imagine..the whole classmate was there...the stage was full...kesian da groom..kena paksa minum til drunk dz....oh ya...they all were la sallian...imagine tht....1 class dtg 2 da wedding...
n 1 more thing...i like the slide show...they hv very nice pic n video....with the props...omg....thts da best n nicest wedding i ever attended..
oh ya...da wedding was on sunday actually...hehehhee...

p/s:i hope i pass my exam..no fail..plz....