im just after tidy up my room....since new year is coming soon which is tomorrow...well...i found some old stuffs that reminds me bout my past including pictures...some of them r funny when i think back...but there is a letter i found that reminds me something...it is sad when i think bout it...it's bout me...the person who wrote it is a very kind,good hearted n all the good things...well...i never bother or even remember bout it...when i read back it makes me realize how much i have change since i got the letter...i've change a lot...when i say a lot it's really A LOT!!!...plus..drasticly i guess...i've change not only my appearance but the whole me...when i think back what sort of thing that i have change but i couldnt recall some of them...i dont know if the changes is good or not...then it makes me think again should i change for this coming new year or not...acil always say that people change but she means it from the bad to the good 1...then how bout me?? some people will be happy & even proud of themselves when they change...but i dont know why i feel so sad...i thought everytime i get into a new environment i did handle it good...i guess it is not....my life has change and i m more upset...maybe it is good actually....but i feel like my heart 'crack' everytime i change....oh my...i never seek for help or even share or ask for advise from anybody...a lot of things i keep it myself...and i admit i never ask for lights from God...im so pathetic...shame on me...well..for the new year i wish the scars in my heart will heal and give me happiness and also for those who i love so much....
(i dont even know what m i talking yet all i know im so sad...)
