Friday, June 12, 2009

update!!!

it's been a while huh....mish me??!! nah...who cares....on Wednesday nite i was hanging out with my chicas....hehehe....sha,mitch,mil,marc,mag (wah..only me n sha's name different from the others)...oh ya...of coz my dear was there....it's fun meeting them even though the nite wasnt that happening...i really miss them....we went to edgar...it was ladies nite that time...they only have vodka for free that nite...suck!! i was hoping to get tequila or martini that nite.....oh ya...that nite was my 1st time went to edgar....the band n the dj was ok...oh ya...i drunk like hell that nite...imagine less that a quarter of mango juice(i think so) n the rest of the glass filled with vodka...hehehehe....i forgot how many glass i've drink...im so drunk til i broke a glass that nite...n that was my 1st time breaking a glass in a club....hehehe...that nite wasnt that happening cuz nobody was having fun...i mean all the people in the club excluded the workers...they just sit there n drink...so boring...mil,mag n marc went to jp having their supper...so left me,my dear, sha n mitch...the music was great actually...me n sha wanted to hit the dance floor yet there's nobody there...so we were just ss-ing dancing near our table while shisha-ing...hehehe....but our body temperature were rising and the dance floor was calling us to break it....since me n sha cant stand it anymore,so we just went to the dance floor dance....2 girls starting the move dance n act like a lesbo,yet still nobody join us...so lame....we went home early that nite (b4 1am)...

the next day....u'll know what happen...kogutan...oh ya....i flung my quiz 1&2 cuz didnt study.....oh well...just let it go....

yesterday i had my 3rd tattoo at my back...near my right shoulder....my dear made it for me....for the 1st time i feel the pain having a tattoo...my gosh...i nearly faint that evening...it was so pain when he did it....i still can feel the pain now....after finish my tattoo,i have 2 rush back home cuz mummy said my bro's cake was waiting for me....luckily i made it...just when i open the door,my sis was lighting the candle....so i ran to my room,put down all my stuffs n of coz join them....

i think that's it....cant sleep...so have to do my case study...new goals....no last minute,dont be lazy,concentrate losing my fats and try to be a new n fresh person....

vyen:
heights-5'2"
weights-41kg(very empty stomach)
42kg(after eat n drink)
*guess if i lose or gain weight*
heheheh....

Wednesday, May 13, 2009

abang 'P'

well....2day...nothing much special actually....
went dating with my dear.....we went out in the afternoon...my dear brought me to lunch...i've starve myself just to leave some space in my tummy...i missed my fav food...i missed mcd...hehehe...it's been a month i didnt eat it...i've been sick til cant eat...not cant eat actually..it's just that my tongue full with medicine taste til i cant taste any nice food anymore...but now im feeling better n i can eat already!!! yeah!!!!
went to mcd at api2...after lunch then we wanna go back home..my dear's home actually...
like usual...we never use the sit belt as we enter the car...after we came out from the junction at wawasan, actually i feel like wanna put on the sit belt cuz usually at this moment the police will 'do their job'....
besa la...tym2 hbs duit....hehehe...but i dont know why i didnt speak it out...
guess what....my instinct is true...haiz...terpaksa la stop....
well..like usual also...abang P ni minta duit blanja kopi la....hehehe...sempat ni he chat with my dear...they were talking bout my dear's tatoos...funny dz...n 1 more thing...abang P called me ms....buduh...
oh well...my dear gave him RM20...hehehe....cari mangsa btul abang2 P ni...hehehe...
actually my point posting bout this is this is my 1st being caught...cuz everytime they're there we're owez been lucky...hehehe...
ok la...whatever it is....dont 4get ur sit belt...saman RM300 owh...mahal tu....u can use the money for shopping u know!! hehehe....

Sunday, May 10, 2009

hi bloggy!!! mish u much!! hehehe...
FYI...im feeling better now..i mean im sick since my 1st paper...24th april til now...can u imagine that....
but im better now...so...erm...nvm...whatever....
actually there's a lot i wanna tell u just now...but i ody told gayle bout it just now...so im feeling a bit better now...n i dont feel like wanna talk bout it again....
just 1 thing that i wanna say....i really miss gayle n shafa so much....if i have the power to change anything that i want...i want to b with them til now...i remember the teacher that i used to call him 'vampire'...i forget what's his name ody....anyway...he said we cant stay with our friends ony or else we cant survive...
but in my situation,i cant survive with them...even though i have close friends in uni that love me n i love them too, but i seldom share things like i share with gayle n shafa...especially gayle...i'll owez talk to gayle n definitely gayle will tell shafa bout it....
i miss the moment that everyday we will share things in the school,when we reach school, breakfast, in the class, recess, after school while waiting for our transport, til at nite, n until we went to sleep.. it's kind a our routine that time....
i really miss it.....so much!!!!
but i know that time will not come back again....i wanted to do like we used to but we're in different environment now....so our problem is different...especially me....i owez have the same prob...n i know if i tell him those bad days that i had she will owez give me the same answer...she ever warn me that no matter how i argue bout it she will owez give the same answer same advice...she will keep on doing it til it really works out...
but the saddest phrase that she told me that she wont be able to help me like usual cuz she's not here to help me...everytime i recall it, it makes me cry....
i never know that im so weak...i thought i could fight it....actually i'd already give it up....
k la..i think that's it...the more i talk bout it,more tears will come out from my eyes...it's enough for me to cry just now.....
whatever it is...it's not too late for me to wish this...
HAPPY MOTHER'S DAY!!!!!

Friday, March 27, 2009

V.I.V.I.A.N!!!!!!!!!

im so bored now...actually i do have lots of work to do but i just dont feel like doing them...since it's been a while i didnt update my blog,so i came to 'visit' it...then i saw my name had been posted at acil's blog....not the title la...i mean she wrote my name in her blog 2day....something bout giving the award....i only manage to read few lines that had shown on the dashboard but i couldnt open it...it said only for invited readers...i smell something fishy here...hehehe...no la...i never care bout that actually...might be something wrong with the system or my pc or what-so-ever it was...so i turn to google search..i dont know what to search actually...so i end up searching for my name...hahaha....stupid girl....but i found something intresting in wikipedia...here there are:

Vivian may be:
Places:
Vivian, Louisiana, USA
Vivian, South Dakota, USA
Vivian Township, Minnesota, USA
Vivian Township, Sargent County, North Dakota, USA
Vivian Island, Nunavut, Canada
a number of places in France are called Saint-Vivien

Other:
Vivian (name)
MV Vivian, an Empire F type coaster originally named Empire Farjeon in service in Greece from 1966-87
Lady of the Lake, in Arthurian mythology, sometimes named Viviane
Vivian, a character from Paper Mario: The Thousand Year Door

People with the first name Vivian
Vivian Campbell (born 1962), heavy metal guitarist
Vivian Chow (born 1967), singer and actress from Hong Kong
Vivian Dandridge (1921-1991), actress
Vivian Green (born 1980), R&B singer
Vivian Hsu (born 1975), singer, actress, and model from Taiwan
Vivien Leigh, Academy Award winning English actress; Leigh changed the spelling of her given name at the beginning of her acting career
Vivian Richards (born 1952), cricketer and sports commentator
Vivian Stanshall (1943-1995), English comedic musician
Vivian Vance (1909-1979), American actress
Saint Bibiana (4th century), also known as Saint Vivian, Roman Virgin Martyr
Vyvyan Basterd, a character on the 1980s British TV comedy The Young Ones

hehehe..there are a lot more actually....nothing intresting 2day...just some other crazy day...whatever..hehehe....ciao!!!

Sunday, March 15, 2009

my dearest monkey~

well...just few minutes ago my monkey(he is my hamster actually) had left me....he die right beside me...
i did realize that something went wrong with him...he seems sick...sleep most of the times....i wanted to bring him to the clinic but i dont have free time...i wish i could turn back time for him....
now while im writing this blog he's still beside me even though he's not breathing anymore...i just cant let him go...he s the cutest among my cute cute little baby...his body is cold now...mummy hasnt know bout it yet...i only told my sis n she's have no idea what to do with him...now she go back to sleep...i cant sleep!!!! what m i suppose to do with him??!! i wish that i have the power of healing....

baby~why did u leave ur momma.....im sorry if lately im busy to spend my time with u...but we did sleep together last nite...that was the last memory i had with u....u r so cute n energetic...i have no idea what happen to u til u left me....

i need to buy 1 that exactly like u...i know it'll not b da same again....

k la..gtg...im blank now....

love u monkey....visit me in my dreams everynight...plz....

Thursday, March 12, 2009

owkay...this morning i wake up kinda late...i suppose to wake up early cuz my dad ask me to follow him to go to federal n bank...if im not mistaken my dad did wake me up this morning few times but still im on my bed...it's about 7.40am++ then i got up from bed...leave around 8am++...funny thing happen when we reach federal...there were 4 lifts,2 at the right n another 2 at the left side...the space between the lifts is quite big...i think they can fit 2 cars...anyway...as usual u'll press the button to gat the lift right?! so i did that...few seconds later the lift behind me was opened...so i walked towards it in average speed...just about i reached the lift it closed already...i was like..."err...?? so quick???!!" i pressed the button again hoping that the lift will open but sadly no...my dad was tailing me that time...right after i press the button,the lift the other side was open...and....stupid thing started to happen...it happened again!!! moron!!...stupid lift!!!..i feel like a clown that time..haiz....so for the 3rd time i press the lift button....i stayed there even though the lift the other side was open cuz im not gonna be fooled by the lift again...damn lift...

after done all the things at federal,we went to CIMB bank at jalan pantai....dad wanna do some withdrawal....after dad get the money,i suddenly realize that's something wrong with my sandal....damn it!!!! my sandal is gonna tear off!!! shit!!! hopefully i still can survive with it...i told my dad bout it...n guess what...he laugh when he saw it....haiz....i was so worried n he still can laugh??!!! he said he still have things to do,so he called a cab to send me to uni.....he did give me money to buy new shoe...hehehe...

as i reached at uni...not exactly at uni la....the stupid driver dont know how to listen to the direction...so i just ask him to drop me near the MS..guess what happen right after i came out from the cab...my sandal is 'officially dead'!!! shit!! urrghhh!!! i just cant stop cursing that time....felt wanna cry too...so i stood at the roadside,under the 'striking' sun,calling my dear...i actually told him that my sandal is gonna tear off before when i realize bout it...so i called him told him bout it n asked him to came down from his office....damn he was laughing at me just like my dad did when he saw my broken sandal....do u know how suffering i m when crossing the road n went up the stairs??? i really cursed my day that time....so i stayed at MS while my dear was looking for shoe shop...sadly there is no shop selling shoes....result!!! damn it!!! my dear was gigling pointing at the shop next to the fish tank shop...he said "tu kedai runcit tu.....ada tu....heheheh"....i was like "im not gonna buy there!!! no way!!!" u know kedai runcit only sell slipar jipun.....im not gonna wear that!!! NO!!!!! so i decided wanna stay at MS only...so my dear went up back n left me there..i try to call omi that time...wanna ask her to acompany me there but she didnt answer me...when i looked at the time it was 10.30am..my gosh!! there's no way im gonna stay there til 12pm!!! so i called my dear to came down again with the very very very very hard feeling asking him to buy me slipar jipun....huhuhu......i have no choice....he was laughing u know....after get that at last i have something to wear on my feet that is not broken....my sandal i asked my dear to throw it away....

gosh!!! for the 1st time i wear SLIPAR JIPUN to uni!!!! omg!!! i really cant believe it!!! thank god only omi was there....if all my friend saw me im sure they'll laugh til they become insane....hehhee....yer.....oh ya...thank god i dont have class...i cant imagine myself with slipar jipun in the class...anyway it's forbidden...hehehe...it's the rule....

Sunday, March 8, 2009

sauna day!!!

wel...2day is my former school's bazar....i was excited wanna visit my old school...yeah...OLD school...hehehehe...my morning didnt start with a nice day....im bored n tired to mention bout it...
ok skip that part n lets forward to when i reached st. francis convent...
so...when i reached there, the place was already pack with people...i was like 'wow'...(speechless)...hehehe... the bazar seems like 'fun'...i mean it was better than the last bazar...that was when im form 1 or 2...cuz when u see the school from outside u'd already mention this-"wow!" hehehe....
just when we entered the school,as i said it was pack,i mean it...too many people til u cant see the 'road'..what i mean is too many people til u need to squeeze urself to get in there....gosh....i wondered how did i survived in there...hehehe...i went with my dear....like usual..we're owez 2gede...hehehe....1st thing in my mind was looking for my sis...i wanna take the coupons...she hold it..
after get the coupons, me n my dear were 'lingering' in the school...just few minutes in there,i started sweating...the place was so hot actually...gosh...we were walking while looking for foods cuz my dear was hungry that time and yet we're sweating like we've running for miles under the sun..my hair was wet...im really regret that i let my hair down that time...
after eating,my sis recomended us to try the ghost house...it was upstair...so we went up but too many people lining up for the ghost house...so we went down n go to the next block...surprisingly....i saw my teacher,ms.tok, sitting near the toilet...wah...my teacher jd penjaga tandas...hehehe...kesian dia...anyway,more surprise...anyone who wanna get into the toilet have to pay RM 1...wah...kalah warisan punya toilet owh...hehehe....mcm la ada aircond in the washroom....after that,we went up to what's up there...and again i was like 'wah...~' they have theater n jamming studio...hahaha....
nothing much intresting cuz the heat makes u wanna get out from there ASAP...hehhe....so we went down n decided to line up for the ghost house...so as we were waiting to get int the 'house',i just cant stop sweting...gosh..i think my sweats that time was like more than 3 liter....hehhee....my dear said that everyone in the school will lose 1kg when they get home...hehehe....i laugh n look my surrounding...no wonder he said so...everybody was sweating....EVERYBODY!!! hehehe....ok....we were standing there for more than 10/15 minutes....i think u can imagine how 'famous' the ghost house is....hehehe...
jeng jeng jeng.....we were about to get in the house!!! so nervous...hehehe....at 1st i didnt feel anything even though i heard them were shouting inside....hhehe...ok ok...IT'S OUR TURN!! 10 people in 1 group...we have to line up again and then we have to follow the 2 pretty ladies as our tour guide...hehehe...wah....it's really dark in there....ok...when the 'music' start,so do our tour....hehehe...i was like 'wah'....so many ghost!!!! hehehe...few of them were on the floor crawling...hahaha....i bet they will be chosen as the 2nd ju-on...hahaha...some of them were wearing mask...the funniest thing happen in there was when there was a 'little ghost' was trying to scare me from behind....i didnt realise that she was behind me n didnt notice the ghost sound was from her...she touched my back,as i turn,a 'little cute ghost' was behind me trying to scare me...i was like aww....so cute owh...then she stop when she heard that...hehehe...that was the funniest and our tour end...as i went out i was talking to my dear actually...i said "what a nice ghosts!" i think i said it too loud til the teacher incharge suddenly turn her head n looked at me smiling...hehehe....
after that we went to kk...cant stay there any longer....i feel so wet with my sweats n sticky...luckily i only wear my eyeliner...i think if i wear all the make-up, it'll melt...hehehe...so we went to cp...so bored...nothing to do while waiting for my sis...so we decided to go for a movie...we watched watchman....it's a quite ok story but the bad thing is,we stayed in the cinema for 2 hours 43 minutes....i have a backache after that...some of them even leave before it end....
bla bla bla bla....just after we went out from the cinema,we straight up go to fetch my sis...then go to tg aru to eat...my sis said she was starving....ok...bla bla bla bla....ordered food n drinks...i dont know what is wrong with my dear that time...he ordered so many food til i feel full when i look at those foods...buntut ayam lg..eeewww....ayam panggang...mee goreng...lekor....nasi ayam pataya....my gosh...i odered fried kuey tiaw..i cant even finish it..not even half of the plate....hehehe...funny thing happen there too...that was when my sis asked me if there any nearest sink for her to wash her hands....so i pointed to the 'hidden' sink...my sis keep on asking where n which one...so i explained to her...while i was 'busy' explaining, suddenly the waiter came beside me with the bill...i stopped talking with lots of ???? on my head...hehehe...who on the world call him?? that time my dear was busy eating had to stop to pay for the food...hehehe...my sis similing....right after the waiter left my sis laugh out loud....she told me that the waiter thought that i called him when i pointed to the sink...sot!! hehehe.....i laugh after that then my dear such a slowpok suddenly ask me why did we laugh...haiz...i explain to him then....hehehe....bla bla bla bloa...finish eating...everybody full.....so we go home...
thats all my day today!!! gtg....so tired today....muaxie!!

Tuesday, March 3, 2009

sickness...

well.....everybody knows that nobody likes to be sick...so do i....but i m so sick now....im sick since last wednesday....gosh....i have fever,flu,cough n sore throat...hate that...headache sometimes....coughing most of the time...tummy ache today....everything is tasteless...gosh...i think my childhood sickness is come back....

when i was young i always sick..it's like a must for me that im sick every month..and then it become worse...im sick twice a month..u know how horrible was that....i hate to go to the clinic even though the doctor was treating me nicely everytime i come to visit him...i hate the smell of the clinic and medicine...moreover the taste of the medicine...none of them taste good...i know u'll totally agree with me...hehehehe....

since it's been years im sticking with my 'routine', my parents brought me for medical check up when i was 16...(wow...now then i realize that i've been through it for such a very very very very long time....gos...)...so when the result came out,they found that my antibodi is not active...i was like..."even such thing do exist...wah...never knew it..." hehehe....so i have to ask for the antibodi every year twice!! gosh...and the thing is not eaten instead it's and injection...i hate when the needle get on my skin....i hate the feeling....hey!! who likes it??!! im sure nobody even have the intention to love except for the drug addicts...hehehe...

but what can i do...i have still have to go for it since im gonna have my SPM n dont wanna missed any class....the result was good...i seldom sick anymore...i've been through it for 2 years then after that i stop..hehehe...my parents are busy till they forgot bout it...hehehe...good news huh....it's been more that 2 years i didnt go for it til today...and the result...IM SICK NOW!!!! anyway...still i dont wanna visit the doc!! i hate injection!!!

dont tell my parents ah...hehehe...dont remind them either...hehehe... k la...gtg...have to finish my assignment...tsk tsk tsk.....hate flu...

oh ya!!! to u all....dont be like me k!! hehehe...

Saturday, February 7, 2009

it's 11.40 when i started to write this things....1st of all...it's bout my sis b'day...which is tomorrow...omg!! she's growing up....we kinda share most of the things....we share the month of our b'day,we celebrate b'day on the same day(i mean she celebrate her b'day on sunday n so do i),we stay in da same room...we share our stories,jokes,probs(i mean some of our probs).....in short we r very close compare us to our bro...i cant believe it that we r so close cuz s i remember in our childhood time we owez fight...i like to bully her actually...i pinch her,pull her hair,bit her,choke her when im mad at her...i asked her to do things that actually i can do it myself...kinda like my servant...hehehe...i yelled a lot at her...that was what i did most of the time...but still when im bored n wanna play still i will ask her to play with me...i dont have friend actually...i mean i only have friends when im in school...thats it...i dont play with my neighbours...so my sis is my only friend if im at home...then i dont know when it started we become so close...we're not fighting anymore....i still cant believe that she's grown up...that day when i hanign out with my sis n her bf,i went to the washroom n they waited outside...when im done i saw they were hugging...it's so sweet but still i have the weird feeling...i mean im not used to see a guy hugging my sis...i mean..err...i dont know...i dont know how to explain...whatever it is i just feel awkward....oh well...i think i have to accept the fact that she is 17years old tomorrow....i cant really live without my sis actually....if she's not at home when im home then nobody will cook for me,no one will chat or gossip with me...hehehe...we share some of our secrets to..we cant share all our secret right...if not then it wouldnt b a secret aite??!!anyway....happy birthday sis...love u so much...!!

p/s:(dedicate to acil)
acil...td sy tgk videoclip hujan kan the guy mcm ur bf ni...hehehe...then to make sure i look at ur profile mau tgk gmbr dia...then i t'perasan something...both of ur eyes almost the same ni...hehhe...2 ja...hehehe...

Tuesday, February 3, 2009



someone sent me this:

This is interesting... but TRUE

Woman has Man in it;
Mrs. has Mr . in it;
Female has Male in it;
She has He in it;
Madam has Adam in it;
No wonder men always want to be inside women! Men were born between the legs of a woman, yet men spend all their life and time trying to go back between the legs of a woman...., Why? BECAUSE THERE IS NO PLACE LIKE HOME
Okay, Okay, it all makes sense now...
I never looked at it this way before:
MENtal illness
MENstrual cramps
MENtal breakdown
MENopause
GUYnecologist
AND ..
When we have REAL trouble, it's a HISterectomy.
Ever notice how all of women's problems start with MEN?

hehehe...it's only for fun...offence...

Sunday, February 1, 2009

well....today is my 1st time going to church for 2009...hehehe....i know im so bad...but i just suddenly feel it...tuhan panggil kali...hehehe...anyway after church,me,mom,dad n bro went for lunch...tiba2 mengidam soto ayam ni...hehehe....gini la org period ni....this isnt a good sign okay....anyway after lunch dad n bro went to my dad's shop while me n mom just hanging around gaya street....mummy lama sdh tdk p gaya street dia bilang...hehehe...so i jln2 with mummy la while waiting for my dear to fetch me...around 12.40pm he came....so mummy went home n me n my dear went to luyang sent his cousin 1st then go cp jln2....i kasi kwn my dear mkn dlu d cp then jln2 then we went to warisan n back to cp again....by the time we enter cp my sis msg me that she wanted to join us after the movie...so we jln2 while waiting for her...tiba2 ada singa tung2 chang ni..hehhee.....my dear apa lg...excited la mau tgk...so we tgk sj la....after my sis finished watching movie,she came down n looking for us...she said she had to go home cuz mummy ask her to home a.s.a.p......emergency...wonder what happen...my sis said might be the hamsters...maybe 1 of them was missing cuz it happened once...



so after my sis left i text my mom n asked what happen....she said the hamsters had a fight...so i thought just a little fight like usual....so no worries....after watch the singa tung2 chang, me n my dear plan wanna go to kk plaza....suddenly mummy called asked me where m i...i said im still at kk...she was crying asking me to go home...after she hang up, i feel something weird...but i ignore it since my sis was otw home...but after i walked few steps i just dont feel right...so i asked my dear to send me home 1st to c what happen..he refuse at 1st cuz ma fan bah mau ulang alik lg..minyak lg...but i force him to send me home...so we went home...



when we reach home mummy sdh standby dpn pintu..iutz...apa gila ni org tua ni in my heart say...hehehe...then she said the hamster gaduh then 1 of them was hurt...my sis blum smpi rumah lg that time...so i rush into my room to c the hamster....it was emo...he was hurt...he was lying on my sis's bed...mummy put him there...when i carry him to c if he injured or not he was so weak...i put him down but he cannot stand up....he was crawling...not really crawl la...he drag himself..i was like OMG!!! what happen to him??!!...i should bring him to the clinic....so me,my dear, sis n shiela p cari clinic la...nasib ada d millennium....

i forgot apa nama tu clinic sdh....but i really hate the doc...when he saw emo he straight away said that there's nothing much he can do with him...emo is paralyze....OMG!!! my poor baby...the stupid doc was giving me 2 option...is either give him pain killer or inject him to let him sleep FOREVER!!! i was so shock when i heard the last phrase...i never thought that bad can it be.....the stupid doc advised me...do u know what he said to me?? "that is just a hamster...why would u wanna spend lots of money for just a hamster??" FUCK U DOC!!! if i dont care bout emo i wouldnt bring him 2 ur place u moron!!! n u dont need to open clinic for animals with such an attitude!! he keep trying to convince me that emo is paralyze n just let him die....i really mad at the doc...i keep on cursing him to death til now...anyway...i just ask the doc to give him pain killer to c how it works...when the doc wanna inject him i really dont dare to c...so i went out from the room...im crying in my heart...

now emo is ok but he cant stand up, eat n play like usual...im so sad when i look at him...he's trying to get up but he couldnt....he golek2 sj...he's trying to grab something to lift him up...how i wish i could understand what animal is saying...poor him....im sorry emo for always scolding u...today's incident makes me realise that i really love u..it's not that i dont love u b4..i do love u but i scolded u more than the others cuz u've been so naughty....

get well baby....i'll do everything that i could....love u...dont leave me k...im not ready yet n never want to.....

Friday, January 30, 2009

TATTOO....i just dont know why some people will think negatively when u talk bout tattoo....well i understand for the muslims...they are not allow to have it...but to those non-muslims people, what is wrong to have tattoo...some of them said that God had given us a perfect body, why do we need to ruin it?? we should appreciate it....well they do have the point there but i still do not agree....if that is the excuse, then why do u need make-up, jeweleries, salons, etc..?? in my opinion God had given us everything that we need in this world and the most powerful thing is He gave us brain to think...then he leaves us to decide what we wanna do...so...as for me i really love this body art...it's kind a unique for me not everybody has it...it is not that im proud having tattoos on me..that is just my interest...some of the people are scared to have it cuz they might heard some of the medical reports bout tattoo infections...that is because they the tattoo artist is not 'professional' artist..most of the report said that they were using the same needle...well...that is not my point actually...my point is why they have to look down of these people...just because they have tattoo they are bad people...didnt u ever think that u are the 1 who make them look bad or even change them to bad?? this is just because of ur negative thinking....poor them...they cant have good job just because of that...didnt u ever think that is their interest...what do u care?? does that bother u?? the tattoo cant even harm u neither touch u...oh well....sometimes im thinking why are these narrow minded people exist...

but i admit that the people who has tattoo is not just bout their interest...i found 1 that the person wanted to have tattoo just because wanna join into the group...yes they are cool people but not all of them are good people....in my heart said this person is so pathetic...we are all the same cuz we are humans unless that u admit urself is an animal or some kind of alien....why do u need 'to join the group'? i mean u have tattoo on u just because of that?? dont u have any better excuse?? all i can say bout this person is PATHETIC!! still i feel pity for these kind of people....u do what they did just wanna join the....come on...get a life k....

talking bout tattoo reminds me bout the funny thing that acil said to me....she said:"have u ever think after u get tattoo of coz it looks nice for now, but when u get old, the skin will be sagging n lots of pigmentation on it...then it would be as nice as the 1st time..." i wasnt ready for that question atually cuz i never think of that b4 i get it...so i just smile and said "biarla...what to do...hehehe.." but know i do have the answer for it....hehehe...the answer is:"if we take carer of ourselves such as exercise,use tone up machine or whatever it calls, take acre of the skin since a lot of skin product nowadays,etc..." so now this is my answer to u if u intend to ask the same question as acil....hehehe.....

k la...gtg...im done...i was bored actually....hehehe....

muaxie muax!!!

Tuesday, January 20, 2009

is it true??

i read mag's latest post just now...then i decided to post it..
the words in the bracket are my opinion...


1. Dia bersungguh2 melakukan sesuatu utk kekasihnya dgn rela bukan krn terpaksa.
(not all of them...)

2. Dia sentiasa ingin menghiburkan kekasihnya dan berubah menjadi orang yg kuat bercakap. (well...my bf is funny since i know him....)

3. Dia byk menasihati kekasihnya kerana dia amat menyayangi kekasihnya. (he is??)

4. Dia berusaha mengongkong kebebasan kekasihnya krn perasaan cemburunya yang meluap2. (mmg dia kuat jeles pun...)

5. Dia sentiasa takut kehilangan kekasihnya. (that is y dia kuat jeles...)

6. Dia sentiasa mengawasi pergerakan kekasihnya krn dia sentiasa berasa curiga. (i feel that way sometimes..)

7. Dia tidak suka ada lelaki lain rapat dgn kekasihnya. (lol...who doesnt??)

8. Dia mudah merasa cemburu dan sensitif apabila kekasihnya tidak menumpukan sepenuh perhatian kepadanya.

9. Adakalanya dia seperti seorang anak kecil yang meminta perhatian krn dia mahu kekasihnya melayannya lebih dari org lain. (yea...sometimes...)

10. Dia menjadi org yg paling rajin dan sanggup membantu kekasihnya melakukan apa saja. (most of the time la..)

11. Dia pandai merajuk hati krn ingin dipujuk oleh kekasihnya. (i tdk suka pujuk org...hehehe...)

12. Dia akan mengalabah apabila kekasihnya berjauhan daripanya terlalu lama. (ya ka dear??)

13. Dia sentiasa mempastikan keselamatan kekasihnya. (everybody does it...)

14. Dia mementingkan! kekasihnya daripada dirinya sendiri.

15. Dia kerap bertanya adakah kekasihnya mencintainya krn dia merasa kasihnya lebih kuat drpd kekasihnya. (prasan jg...hehehe...but not all of them care bout it..)

16. Dia tidak akan melayan perempuan lain yg tidak ada urusan penting dengannya.

17. Dia cuba meluangkan lebih byk masa dgn kekasihnya walaupun terpaksa menunggu kekasihnya dgn sabar. (manada!!! i slalu kena marah if i lambat....)

18. Dia membanggakan kekasihnya di depan org lain. (i dont think so he ever did it)

19. Kalau ditinggalkan oleh kekasihnya, ia akan berasa serik dan tidak percaya dgn cinta perempuan lain namun dia sentiasa mengharap kekasihnya kembali kepadanya. (this not only happen to the guys k...)

20. Apabila timbul org ketiga, dia akan hilang akal dan sanggup berbuat apa saja untuk merebut kembali kekasihnya. (mestila.....)

21. Dia menganggap kekasihnya sebagai org yg paling dipercayainya dan sanggup menyerahkan harta walaupun nyawanya sendiri. (ya meh??)

22. Dia tidak akan berlaku curang kepada kekasihnyanamun jikalau dia diaberbuat demikian itu bererti hatinya belum 100peratus mencintai kekasihnya. (mmg la bah...ish3x...hehehe..)

23. Bukan semua lelaki sanggup menitiskan air mata hanya untuk seorang perempuan. (yups!!! so true!!!)

HARGAILAH MEREKA..



actually i post this for my dear...but u guys may read it too...hehehe...whatever it is i love my dear....

Tuesday, January 13, 2009

really??

im so bored now waiting for my mum to finish her work....anyway im pretty happy 2day hanging out with my friends at uni...kesian omi tinggal alone just now....i laugh a lot 2day....2day....c yus bodoh...but kambang la juga cuz he said i kurus ody...wakakakaka....eee....suka bah c vyen ni...well...i really gain weight b4 this yet i might lost some weight when i was sick..im still sick but much better than b4...no fever anymore...dz is the longest sickness i've ever get and the 1st for this year....damn....hehehe...idk what is wrong with me today but somehow there is something missing...idk what is that thing but yeah...that is how i feel 2day...

k la...gtg...wanna sleep...

1 more thing....what is wrong with the weather nowadays...it's early of the year...bkn musim tengkujuh...why must it rain everyday?? eee....

k la...bye...hehehe...muaxie muax!!!

Sunday, January 4, 2009

i think what acil said was true....when u reach 20 u started to think bout urself a lot...that is scary...cuz the new me since i entered the new environment was no longer a strict n strong girl...i tend to forget most of the things that i dont wanna think of...cuz the old me was holding a lot or grudge which i still keep it til now...saya masih lagi seorang PENDENDAM!! but not worse than last time...now im kinda confuse which 1 is better?? the old me or the me now?? those people who really know me they know how m i last time....u know why i love my friends so much?? they r my precious more than my family...it is not that i dont love my family...but when i have probs,need some1 to share,hanging out with them...my friends r totally different compare to my bf...it is not that my bf isnt good...nobody is perfect anyway...but for certain reasons i need my friends....to those who value their friends surely know what m i trying to say...neither my parents....their life certainly different to my life...if parents is the best choice to keep as a bestfriend,then why do we need friends or diaries or maybe our pets?? oh!! forgot!! blogs!!! hehehe... last year or should i say last month i went to gayle's hse to visit her since she cant go out to anywhere that day...we talked a lot of things...there's 1 thing that we talked made me tears...i still remember the phrase she said "u have to b a risk taker cuz im not gonna b by ur side like we used to...where does the strong vivian that i know goes??" i realize bout this thing..but i ignore it...when i said im over it actually some of them im not...i cry in silence most of my times...why does the future is so unpredictable...why is the life have to b like this?? why cant it b like in the fairy tales?? i used to b so excited to grow faster...experincing the new environments...years gone by im getting so scared...i feel like im so weak to go any further...im not over with most of the things!!! hopefully it will get better this year...

(i have class tomorrow!!! n im still fucking SICK!!! shit!!!)

Saturday, January 3, 2009

i cant believe it!!

OMG!!! now is 2009!!! i cant believe it that im gonna b 20 years old soon!!! OMG!!! im getting old!!! i didnt realize bout that...im gonna b 20!!! 20!!! when i think bout that suddenly i feel nervous..hehehe...i wonder how is it being 20...wow...im growing...lol...i cant wait to feel the feeling of being 20 years old...hehehe...yet im still scared...hopefully evrything goes well...

anyway im so sick...it's been few days i have high fever...coughing....oh no!!! i dont wanna b sick when my class start which is next week!!! gosh.....

Wednesday, December 31, 2008

HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!!!

Happy new year everybody!!!!
Welcome 2009!!!

well....i spent my new year with my beloved 1...who else??!! my dear of coz....at the new year eve we went to the fun fair again...me n my dear with his friend,jojo n his gf...my dear is so excited wanna ride the octopus thingy again....gosh...if u were down there that night u will see how ugly my face up there...im so scared even though that was my 2nd ride...jeez...then we try the spinning dancing thingy..i dont know what that thing called...anyway that thing is suck!!! it make u get body ache...gosh...i dont wanna ride that stupid thing again...and then we ride the spinning thingy....i dont know what it is yet it's spining...that thing is totally like the octopus thingy...im scared til my tears drop...gosh...after that we play some game at the game booths...and again we didnt win any price...i saw some of my friends and my cousin's husband n my nice...i saw wanie n fatihah(ngam ka 2?)..hehehe...

after that jim invited my dear n i went to his place celebrating new year...so we went there...when we reach there, there wasnt that exciting...my dear introduce me to some of the new guy i've never met...then i found thid matt guy (ngam ka 2 nama dia dear?)...he likes my cuzzie maddie...lol...he said love at the 1st sight...what a crap...lol...anyway i will not let him get my cuzzie...wakakkaa....just kidding....she's not intrested with him anyway....owh...poor matt...well...dont worry...there's a lot more girls out there...well...we drink n chit chatting...not that fun...i think cuz everybody was waiting the clock strike 12...hehehe...

12.00am!!! HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!
i just wanna wish my dear n friends but something happen..
stupid guy!! he's sprinkle,pouring water on every1..gosh...luckily i didnt get wet...just my feet..after that the craziness suddenly came which most of the guys were pouring/sprinkle beer to everybody!!! eeewwww....that think is stink when it get on ur body!!! and again...i get the beer...eewww....im so stink last nite!! jeez....stupid them...the place smells beer that time...the floor was wet with beer....eewww....uugghhh!!!
suddenly trouble happened...i dont what was exactly happen yet the police came and caught one of the member...i really dont know what happen...and then monalisa talked to me...she was asking bout what had happen...and then we keep on chatting and we i found out that she is my mum's bestfriend in the office son's gf..hehehe...wow..they have been together for 8 years...wow...i cant even imagine myself with my dear 8 years together...after all that we went home around 2am...

whatever it is,it's new year now...im having new dreams n goals to achive...so long 2008...im gonna miss u...i have a lot of moment with u 2008...
love u all!!!
muaxie!!!

here are some pics me n my dear on the new year:


Tuesday, December 30, 2008

tired

im just after tidy up my room....since new year is coming soon which is tomorrow...well...i found some old stuffs that reminds me bout my past including pictures...some of them r funny when i think back...but there is a letter i found that reminds me something...it is sad when i think bout it...it's bout me...the person who wrote it is a very kind,good hearted n all the good things...well...i never bother or even remember bout it...when i read back it makes me realize how much i have change since i got the letter...i've change a lot...when i say a lot it's really A LOT!!!...plus..drasticly i guess...i've change not only my appearance but the whole me...when i think back what sort of thing that i have change but i couldnt recall some of them...i dont know if the changes is good or not...then it makes me think again should i change for this coming new year or not...acil always say that people change but she means it from the bad to the good 1...then how bout me?? some people will be happy & even proud of themselves when they change...but i dont know why i feel so sad...i thought everytime i get into a new environment i did handle it good...i guess it is not....my life has change and i m more upset...maybe it is good actually....but i feel like my heart 'crack' everytime i change....oh my...i never seek for help or even share or ask for advise from anybody...a lot of things i keep it myself...and i admit i never ask for lights from God...im so pathetic...shame on me...well..for the new year i wish the scars in my heart will heal and give me happiness and also for those who i love so much....

(i dont even know what m i talking yet all i know im so sad...)

Saturday, December 27, 2008

7 things...

i've been tagged by pika again...


*7 fakta tentang saya
~im short.....(T_T)
~lots of bad habits..
~i love my friends...my family....n of coz my dear....
~i cant live without hp...
~hate green so much!!!
~love puppy!!!
~never being satisfy of myself...


*7 perkara menakutkan saya di dunia:
~die in a very tragic way...
~my parents leave me...
~dunia kiamat...
~natural disaster
~losing some1 that i love so much
~being alone
thats all i can list down....

*7 lagu buat masa sekarang:
~if i were a boy
~t-shirt - shontelle
~out from under - britney spears
~wake up call - hayden
~check yes juliet
~i hate this part
~stay - estralla

*7 perkara yang amat bernilai:
~freinds
~family
~my dear
~money
~my future
~being happy
~love

*7 pertama kali dalam hidup saya:
~22 feb 1989....see the world...
~able to a normal person
~experince to live in this world...
~meeting some1 that really care bout me even though he is not what i've expected but being in love with him is the best i've ever feel...
~having such a wonderful friends...gayle,shafa,acil,bella,omi,sonia,joanna,mag(even though u r my cuzzie yet u r my friend too) n a lot more to list...
~born with a family....
~still alive til now...hehehe...

*7 perkara selalu sebut:
~pantat
~ish!!
~eleh...
~emm..
~ya la...
~huh??
~yer....

*7 orang yang ditag:
~acil
~mag
~ewan
~wilson

thats all i have...hehehehe...

tagged by pika...

Rules:
1.Once you’ve been tagged, you are supposed to write a note with 16 random things, facts, habits, or goals about you.
2. At the end, choose 16 people to be tagged.
3.You have to tag the person who tagged you.
4.If I tagged you, it’s because I want to know more about you.
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  1. for the new year..2009...i need to get back my 3 pointer....
  2. start to 'work out' to get my body back...
  3. I HATE GREEN!!!!
  4. i love puppy!!!!
  5. i always need something to hug when i sleep...
  6. love western food...cheese my fav...
  7. love black,white,blue n purple...
  8. love hillary...
  9. love my friends...
  10. never like myself...
  11. i have a lot of dreams...
  12. im a day dreamer...
  13. i always swallow the chewing gum...(i know it is gross) hehehe...
  14. i like to sleep cuz i like to dream....
  15. im the eldest yet im the smallest....
  16. im complicated...

i tagged:

  • acil
  • ewan
  • wilson
  • mag

-i dont think i need to tag pika again..i know her already...she is my besfriend since im in primary school-

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